[COVER] To My Youth - 나의 사춘기에 || BOL4 - 볼빨간사춘기 by Jessi

To My Youth



At some point in my life
I used to wish that I could disappear from this world
The whole world seemed so dark
I cried every night
Will my mind feel at ease
If I just disappeared
I was so afraid
Of everyone’s eyes on me

During those beautifully beautiful days
I was in pain
I hated myself
For not being able to receive love
My mum and dad
They’re only looking at me
This is not how I really feel
But I keep getting further away

What do I do
What do I do
What do I do
What do I do

The saying that time is medicine
Was really true for me
As the days went by
I really did get better
But sometimes when I’m too happy
I’m afraid I’ll be in pain again
I’m afraid that someone
Will take away my happiness

Those beautifully beautiful memories
Were so painful
I hurt to the point where I could hurt no more
But the pain wouldn’t go away
My friends all these people
They’re only looking at me
This is not how I really am
But I keep getting further away

But still maybe I could be
A bright light
In this world
Maybe after all of that pain
I could shine a light
Even if it’s short
So I couldn’t give up
The me that couldn’t fall asleep peacefully for a single night
Because if I keep trying to stand up like this
I might be able to find myself

Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

How painful must it have been
How painful must it have been
How much, how much, how much did I hope for it